Bibliographic record
Abstract
My Mother's Madame Alexander Doll Sara Jeanine Smith (bio) slept in the posh coffin of a turquoise fauxsnakeskin cosmetic box. Her box was on the top shelf in the closetof the tiny bedroom I shared with my brother in our singlewide mobile home,tucked away where he couldn't reach. She was precious and porcelain.To raise her from her casket was to exhume a jewel from antiquity.Her skin was impossibly white, her blue eyes framed by lashes so thickthey must have been made of mascara or fortified with tears. Her eyes would open onlywhen I turned her upright. Until then, she nested in a bed of her own clothing,coats and muffs and jaunty hats we never wore in Florida. When I pumped her legs in a scissor-slice,her head would magically pivot, glancing to each side of her in an oh so glamoroussafety lesson for crossing a busy street [End Page 129] in a faraway city, somewhere in Russia, perhapsor New York or Canada, somewhere cold I had never been. Her blond hair framed her face,curling only at its ends, not like my brown untamable mop of curls. Her mouthwas not quite a kiss, not quite a smile, and she seemed to know a secretshe would never tell me. I knew that I would never be friends with this perfect girl. If she were real,she would never speak to me or look my way as she crossed whatever street in one of the polar citiesthat haunted my dreams. But I wanted to be her, to be so special and delicate that to remove mefrom my makeup box would be an occasion no boy would be allowed to interrupt. I wantedto stride down some foreign boulevard in a fur coat and hat, cutting the cold airwith my confident legs, always watching with my ice-blue eyes,staring down any danger that dare shatter me. [End Page 130] Sara Jeanine Smith Sara Jeanine Smith lives in Pensacola, Florida. She is a mother of two daughters and an associate professor of English at Pensacola State College. She enjoys kayaking with dolphins for company and singing in bars. Her poems have appeared in South Florida Poetry Journal, Barely South Review, Pigeonholes, Roanoke Review, Psaltery & Lyre, Hurricane Review, and other publications. Her chapbook entitled Queen and Stranger was published by USPOCO Books in 2019. See more of her work at sarajeaninesmith.com. Copyright © 2023 Berea College
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How this classification was reachedexpand
Full frame machine prediction
Teacher imitationNot calibrated prevalence, not ground truth. Human validation pending. The Gemma side is a direct model label for every work in the frame, read from the title-only record. The Codex side is a classifier learned from the 10,348 direct Codex labels and calibrated to design-weighted sample rates; fields without enough sample support carry no Codex call. Candidate is the union of the two sides; consensus is their intersection. These outputs are machine_predicted_unvalidated and are not human labels.
Distilled classifier scores by category (both heads)
| Category | Codex | Gemma |
|---|---|---|
| Metaresearch | 0.001 | 0.003 |
| Meta-epidemiology (narrow) | 0.001 | 0.000 |
| Meta-epidemiology (broad) | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Bibliometrics | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Science and technology studies | 0.005 | 0.001 |
| Scholarly communication | 0.002 | 0.003 |
| Open science | 0.001 | 0.004 |
| Research integrity | 0.002 | 0.005 |
| Insufficient payload (model declined to judge) | 0.254 | 0.110 |
Machine scores (provisional)
The two teacher heads of the student model, read on this work. A score orders the frame for review; it never asserts a category, and the validation status ships verbatim with every row.
Baseline scores from an immature model (maturity gate not passed, 7 training rounds). Scores rank; they never assert a category.
score_only:v0-immature-baseline · verbatim from the scoring run: score_only means the number may rank works, and no category label ships from itClassification
machine, unvalidatedMachine predicted; a candidate call from one source (direct Gemma or distilled Codex), not a consensus.
How this classification was reached, model by model and score by score, is at the end of the page under "How this classification was reached".