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My Wedding Day Syrena Oswald Canada I heard the whisper of my name as I stood at the edge of the bridge, gathering up all my courage and strength to jump. After hearing my name repeatedly, I finally yelled with my eyes shut, "Leave me alone!" I kept my eyes closed, spread my arms out like Jesus on the cross, and jumped over 120 feet into the cold river water. Once I hit the water, I felt my body surge with a powerful rush, and as I sank to the bottom, I heard a faint voice telling me to rise. As I came up to the surface, I gasped for air and began to feel panicked. Again, this same peaceful voice told me to lie back and remain calm. And as I floated on the river's surface, I felt the vibrant heat of the sun shining down upon me and felt a peace I had never felt before. Within minutes I felt the tug of someone grasping at my arm, and they began pulling me towards the shore. Once we got to the shore, I proceeded to tear off all my clothes and stood at the water's edge naked and in shock. After a few minutes, someone wrapped a blanket around me, and then I began to run up to the vehicles calling out my love's name, pulling at the door handles, wondering why I could not find him. My goal in jumping off the bridge was to show my partner how much I loved him and to show God that I was ready to walk down the aisle and become one with God and my love. I wondered where all my family and friends were? Why weren't they here waiting for me? As this was my wedding day. I was so confused. Little did I know that at that moment, I was at the height of a severe mania and had been hallucinating, delusional, and in a state of profound psychosis. It wasn't too long after I was running around trying to get into vehicles that I was taken into custody by the Royal Canadian Mounted Police and driven to the hospital, where I was admitted into the secure medical unit and later diagnosed with Bipolar 1. Six months prior, I had been diagnosed with panic attacks and depression, which prompted the psychiatrist to prescribe me antidepressants. Unfortunately, antidepressants can induce mania in patients with bipolar disorder, which I was told by the doctors. It is fair to say that had the previous psychiatrist taken more time to investigate my background, he may have been able to determine that I was, in fact, dealing with bipolar disorder, not just anxiety and depression. During my month stay at the secure medical unit, I received some good care from the attending psychiatrist, who is now my full-time doctor, and from the team of nurses. However, one incident that occurred during the first week left me traumatized and created a deep sense of shame and left me unable to speak of it for over a year. During the first few days in the secure medical unit, I was told I slept for days, which seemed reasonable as I had not been sleeping due to the mania. After feeling a little more stable, I recall feeling quite agitated with being isolated from family and friends and wanting desperately to speak with my mother and my best friend. I remember walking out of my room and heading towards the nursing station, where I promptly asked the attending nurses to give me the phone so I could call both my mother and my best friend. The staff refused to do so. I then became incredibly upset and began yelling both my mother's and best friend's phone numbers repeatedly, demanding I be provided a telephone to call them. I was tackled and taken into a small room where I was pinned to the ground and injected with a needle in my butt. Within minutes I was knocked out by the sedative they gave me. When I finally awoke, I was terrified by my surroundings as I was locked...
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Prédiction machine sur la base complète
Imitation des enseignantsNi prévalence calibrée, ni vérité terrain. Validation humaine à venir. Le volet Gemma est une étiquette directe du modèle pour chaque travail de la base, lue sur la notice réduite au titre. Le volet Codex est un classifieur appris des 10 348 étiquettes directes de Codex et calibré sur les taux pondérés de l'échantillon; les champs sans appui suffisant ne portent aucun appel Codex. Le mode candidate est l'union des deux volets; le consensus est leur intersection. Ces sorties portent le statut machine_predicted_unvalidated et ne sont pas des étiquettes humaines.
Scores du classifieur distillé par catégorie (deux têtes)
| Catégorie | Codex | Gemma |
|---|---|---|
| Métarecherche | 0,001 | 0,003 |
| Méta-épidémiologie (sens strict) | 0,001 | 0,000 |
| Méta-épidémiologie (sens large) | 0,001 | 0,000 |
| Bibliométrie | 0,001 | 0,001 |
| Études des sciences et des technologies | 0,007 | 0,001 |
| Communication savante | 0,006 | 0,003 |
| Science ouverte | 0,001 | 0,004 |
| Intégrité de la recherche | 0,002 | 0,004 |
| Charge utile insuffisante (le modèle a refusé de juger) | 0,541 | 0,362 |
Scores machine (provisoires)
Les deux têtes enseignantes du modèle étudiant, lues sur ce travail. Un score ordonne la base pour la relecture; il n'affirme jamais une catégorie, et le statut de validation accompagne chaque rangée tel quel.
Scores de référence d'un modèle non mature (critères de maturité non atteints, 7 itérations). Un score ordonne; il n'affirme jamais une catégorie.
score_only:v0-immature-baseline · tel quel depuis la passe de notation : score_only signifie que le nombre peut ordonner les travaux, et qu'aucune étiquette de catégorie n'en découleClassification
machine, non validéePrédiction automatique; un appel candidat d’une seule source (Gemma direct ou Codex distillé), pas un consensus.
Le détail, modèle par modèle et score par score, se trouve en fin de page sous « Comment cette classification a été obtenue ».