Before we get into the event—I would like to hear from you in what way you think that my love affected you : (verbatim fragments on memory and loss—from a piece that I have been working on my whole adult life and may never write)
Bibliographic record
Abstract
Throughout his mother’s decade-long battle with early onset Alzheimer’s disease, Marcus Youssef has used multiple narrative forms to document his experience of his mother’s illness. Using examples of his own writing about her Alzheimer’s, as well as the writing his mother did as the disease took hold, Youssef examines the ways in which his own attempts to construct performance narratives out of the disease’s impact seem remarkably similar to his mother’s own attempts to preserve a sense of narrative (or “self”) in the face of the steady erasure of her memory. Taken together, these fragments of essay, drama, journal and radio broadcast make a kind of patchwork and subjective memory document that catalogues one example of this emerging cultural rite of passage. It also poses fundamental questions about the relationship of narrative to self, and memory’s complicated and elusive role in the formation of both.
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How this classification was reachedexpand
Full frame machine prediction
Teacher imitationNot calibrated prevalence, not ground truth. Human validation pending. The Gemma side is a direct model label for every work in the frame, read from the title-only record. The Codex side is a classifier learned from the 10,348 direct Codex labels and calibrated to design-weighted sample rates; fields without enough sample support carry no Codex call. Candidate is the union of the two sides; consensus is their intersection. These outputs are machine_predicted_unvalidated and are not human labels.
Distilled classifier scores by category (both heads)
| Category | Codex | Gemma |
|---|---|---|
| Metaresearch | 0.001 | 0.003 |
| Meta-epidemiology (narrow) | 0.001 | 0.000 |
| Meta-epidemiology (broad) | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Bibliometrics | 0.001 | 0.001 |
| Science and technology studies | 0.007 | 0.007 |
| Scholarly communication | 0.003 | 0.002 |
| Open science | 0.001 | 0.002 |
| Research integrity | 0.001 | 0.003 |
| Insufficient payload (model declined to judge) | 0.012 | 0.002 |
Machine scores (provisional)
The two teacher heads of the student model, read on this work. A score orders the frame for review; it never asserts a category, and the validation status ships verbatim with every row.
Baseline scores from an immature model (maturity gate not passed, 7 training rounds). Scores rank; they never assert a category.
score_only:v0-immature-baseline · verbatim from the scoring run: score_only means the number may rank works, and no category label ships from itClassification
machine, unvalidatedMachine predicted; a candidate call from one source (direct Gemma or distilled Codex), not a consensus.
How this classification was reached, model by model and score by score, is at the end of the page under "How this classification was reached".