Negotiating Notions of Self, Culture, and Curriculum throughout Graduate School: One Student’s Reflexive Explorations
Bibliographic record
Abstract
Inspired by an autoethnographic mode of inquiry, I attempt to make sense of my experiences during graduate school by exploring critical incidents that have propelled me to reconstruct new visions of myself as a scholar and to adopt flexible understandings of curricula in higher education. I articulate several significant experiences involving my ongoing negotiations of self, culture, and curriculum throughout graduate studies. Utilizing a poststructuralist lens of analysis I take up these moments of tension, by asking myself a series of Deleuzian inspired questions (Williams, 2005), which prompt reflexive thought. These questions may help other graduate students to reconcile contradictions they encounter throughout their graduate education, while striving to identify productive visions for themselves as scholars and to adopt open-mindedness towards different perspectives.
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How this classification was reachedexpand
Full frame machine prediction
Teacher imitationNot calibrated prevalence, not ground truth. Human validation pending. The Gemma side is a direct model label for every work in the frame, read from the title-only record. The Codex side is a classifier learned from the 10,348 direct Codex labels and calibrated to design-weighted sample rates; fields without enough sample support carry no Codex call. Candidate is the union of the two sides; consensus is their intersection. These outputs are machine_predicted_unvalidated and are not human labels.
Distilled classifier scores by category (both heads)
| Category | Codex | Gemma |
|---|---|---|
| Metaresearch | 0.017 | 0.038 |
| Meta-epidemiology (narrow) | 0.001 | 0.001 |
| Meta-epidemiology (broad) | 0.002 | 0.001 |
| Bibliometrics | 0.003 | 0.002 |
| Science and technology studies | 0.018 | 0.036 |
| Scholarly communication | 0.014 | 0.009 |
| Open science | 0.004 | 0.016 |
| Research integrity | 0.006 | 0.016 |
| Insufficient payload (model declined to judge) | 0.002 | 0.001 |
Machine scores (provisional)
The two teacher heads of the student model, read on this work. A score orders the frame for review; it never asserts a category, and the validation status ships verbatim with every row.
Baseline scores from an immature model (maturity gate not passed, 7 training rounds). Scores rank; they never assert a category.
score_only:v0-immature-baseline · verbatim from the scoring run: score_only means the number may rank works, and no category label ships from itClassification
machine, unvalidatedMachine predicted; a candidate call from one source (direct Gemma or distilled Codex), not a consensus.
How this classification was reached, model by model and score by score, is at the end of the page under "How this classification was reached".