“The Stone Weighs Heavier”: Return, Belonging, and the Dialogical Self
Bibliographic record
Abstract
This paper offers an autoethnographic account of my doctoral research on the repatriation experiences of return migrant women to Kosova. Grounded in postcolonial theory, transnational feminism, and Dialogical Self Theory (DST), I reflect on the complexities of researching a population to which I am simultaneously connected and distanced—as a Kosovar-born, Canadian-educated woman who chose to return. Through personal narrative and critical reflexivity, I examine how my own migration history, identity, and emotions shaped and were shaped by the research process. Autoethnography served as both a method and mode of theorizing, enabling me to explore tensions between privilege and marginality, insider and outsider, home and away. I use DST to articulate the shifting “I-positions” I inhabited throughout this journey, including moments of discomfort, vulnerability, and relational connection with returnee women. Rather than striving for neutrality, I embrace multiplicity and contradiction as sites of knowledge production. In doing so, this paper challenges simplified researcher position statements and highlights the ethical and epistemological importance of reflexive, relational, and situated inquiry in migration research.
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How this classification was reachedexpand
Full frame distilled prediction
Teacher imitationNot calibrated prevalence, not ground truth. Human validation pending. Learned from the 10,348 direct Codex labels and 10,348 direct Gemma labels. Candidate is the union of thresholded teacher heads; consensus is their intersection. These outputs are machine_predicted_unvalidated and are not human labels or direct frontier model labels.
Codex and Gemma teacher scores by category
| Category | Codex | Gemma |
|---|---|---|
| Metaresearch | 0.002 | 0.000 |
| Meta-epidemiology (narrow) | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Meta-epidemiology (broad) | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Bibliometrics | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Science and technology studies | 0.001 | 0.003 |
| Scholarly communication | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Open science | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Research integrity | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Insufficient payload (model declined to judge) | 0.000 | 0.000 |
Machine scores (provisional)
The two teacher heads of the student model, read on this work. A score orders the frame for review; it never asserts a category, and the validation status ships verbatim with every row.
Baseline scores from an immature model (maturity gate not passed, 7 training rounds). Scores rank; they never assert a category.
score_only:v0-immature-baseline · verbatim from the scoring run: score_only means the number may rank works, and no category label ships from itClassification
machine, unvalidatedMachine predicted; a candidate call from one teacher head, not a consensus.
How this classification was reached, model by model and score by score, is at the end of the page under "How this classification was reached".