Bibliographic record
Abstract
I analyze my grandmother’s racial trauma which expressed itself as a racist-colorist way of seeing. The questions that guide my reflection are the following: Through what gaze did my grandmother look at herself? Did my mother and I inherit her way of seeing, that is, a gaze that hates the body it sees? I put special emphasis on the repetitions and continuity that I find among the three family generations. In this sense, I wonder if my grandmother's visual experience functions as a kind of prophecy from which my mother, her sisters and I could not escape, a kind of inexorable destiny like the one faced by Oedipus. Given the nature of my inquiry, I adopt an intergenerational perspective at a historical and family level. In other words, I assume there is a link between individual perception and historical context given that they mutually complement each other. I argue that my grandmother’s self-perception was filtered through a colonial way of seeing. Furthermore, her internalized colorism has been inherited from the times when Mexico was a Spanish colony. For the latter, I provide a brief historical framework that explains the Mestizaje Ideology and how it sets the tone to talk about race in Mexico, as well as Joaquín Barriendo’s definition of coloniality of seeing. Later on, I present an analysis on the (self-)perception of my grandmother, my mother and her sisters, and me parting from exchanges and memories that I consider here as signs and symbols that the ‘oracle’ tried to communicate to me.
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How this classification was reachedexpand
Full frame distilled prediction
Teacher imitationNot calibrated prevalence, not ground truth. Human validation pending. Learned from the 10,348 direct Codex labels and 10,348 direct Gemma labels. Candidate is the union of thresholded teacher heads; consensus is their intersection. These outputs are machine_predicted_unvalidated and are not human labels or direct frontier model labels.
Codex and Gemma teacher scores by category
| Category | Codex | Gemma |
|---|---|---|
| Metaresearch | 0.001 | 0.001 |
| Meta-epidemiology (narrow) | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Meta-epidemiology (broad) | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Bibliometrics | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Science and technology studies | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Scholarly communication | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Open science | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Research integrity | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Insufficient payload (model declined to judge) | 0.000 | 0.000 |
Machine scores (provisional)
The two teacher heads of the student model, read on this work. A score orders the frame for review; it never asserts a category, and the validation status ships verbatim with every row.
Baseline scores from an immature model (maturity gate not passed, 7 training rounds). Scores rank; they never assert a category.
score_only:v0-immature-baseline · verbatim from the scoring run: score_only means the number may rank works, and no category label ships from itClassification
machine, unvalidatedMachine predicted; a candidate call from one teacher head, not a consensus.
How this classification was reached, model by model and score by score, is at the end of the page under "How this classification was reached".