Bibliographic record
Abstract
A s I stare at my door which rarely opens, the reality of solitary confi nement weighs heavily upon my shoulders.Is this rehabilitation?There are days when I do not hear my own voice and, as days pass, I fi nd myself more frequently answering my own mental contemplations.Without a strong mind, one can easily tumble into a mental crisis.That is a regular occurrence around here, evident by the screams of desperation, followed by the frantic kicks and punches which rattle the same doors at which I am staring.The unbudging steel fuelling the fl ames of helplessness, charring their resolve.Somehow this environment is not alien to me.It is by far not the highlight of my existence, rather it has become a minor inconvenience.Writing those last two words was not easy -to say that the loss of my freedom is a minor convenience exposes my institutionalization.I have spent a lifetime in cells just like this one and, when I was free, the desperation was still present.After the life I lived, immersed in the criminal subculture, things like desperation, violence, drug addiction, resentment, greed, and death became my social norms.To experience anything outside of that was alien.I have never valued societal norms or felt included in normative society, so my transition to the subculture was a seamless one.I think most people mistakenly assume that everyone knows and understands the societal norms, and should therefore abide by them.However, when you are not provided the stability to develop your own values and a platform to pursue them, then societal norms become chains of oppression.I always felt that society was impressing its will upon me, and as a child I had no way to express this feeling, so I rebelled.As an adolescent, anytime I felt an authority (whether institutional or parental), I began to fi ght that noose and thrash against it.That feeling of helplessness was the source of my anger.Not knowing how to fi ght it, I began to physically impose my will, whether on my peers or anyone in whom I perceived weakness.I used aggression to hide the scared, insecure child I really was.I have harmed a lot of people running from those feelings of helplessness, some of whom I love.Two years ago, I made the decision to change my life.Deep down, I did not believe it was possible.My experiences caused me to develop a low sense of self-worth.I began to educate myself and take some painful trips down memory lane to fi nd the root causes of my behaviour.Learning how to heal from the inside-out has been a priceless tool on my journey.Though there are still times, such as this, where my intellect does not apply and my
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How this classification was reachedexpand
Full frame distilled prediction
Teacher imitationNot calibrated prevalence, not ground truth. Human validation pending. Learned from the 10,348 direct Codex labels and 10,348 direct Gemma labels. Candidate is the union of thresholded teacher heads; consensus is their intersection. These outputs are machine_predicted_unvalidated and are not human labels or direct frontier model labels.
Codex and Gemma teacher scores by category
| Category | Codex | Gemma |
|---|---|---|
| Metaresearch | 0.002 | 0.001 |
| Meta-epidemiology (narrow) | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Meta-epidemiology (broad) | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Bibliometrics | 0.001 | 0.001 |
| Science and technology studies | 0.001 | 0.000 |
| Scholarly communication | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Open science | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Research integrity | 0.000 | 0.000 |
| Insufficient payload (model declined to judge) | 0.000 | 0.000 |
Machine scores (provisional)
The two teacher heads of the student model, read on this work. A score orders the frame for review; it never asserts a category, and the validation status ships verbatim with every row.
Baseline scores from an immature model (maturity gate not passed, 7 training rounds). Scores rank; they never assert a category.
score_only:v0-immature-baseline · verbatim from the scoring run: score_only means the number may rank works, and no category label ships from itClassification
machine, unvalidatedMachine predicted; a candidate call from one teacher head, not a consensus.
How this classification was reached, model by model and score by score, is at the end of the page under "How this classification was reached".